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2005-11-22 - 7:30 p.m. So, yes, it's been quite some time. I'd like to say i was doing something amazing with myself, but that would be a big fat lie. The truth is, i broke up with Jake and promptly met Ruben. We starting dating, he even helped me move and paint over my lovely green walls in my studio. We had a good time, all the time. He didn't work. Or have a car. I told him when i met him i didn't date boys that were missing those to objects. Apparently i'm not as adverse to lying as i would like to project that i am. He even moved in, that caught me off gaurd, but i let it happen anyway. I asked him to leave about two weeks later. I had come to the conclusion that he was too dependent on me, and killing who i wanted to be. Frankly, he had too much free time on his hands. My rejecting our relationship absolutely crushed him. That was roughly a week ago. That is probably the most eventful thing that i have endured. I moved to sacramento, i don't really like it here, i do miss parts of Chico, but don't really think i want to go back. Although my schooling is seriously up in the air, so in theory, i could. I miss the park most of all, too, i miss the o-ville home depot, but going back, it wouldn't be the same. I miss the naked lounge, and i miss amber. I REALLY miss my studio apartment. My apartment here is just rotten. My car was promptly broken into when i moved here, and i was sick all the time. I fell and sprained my ankle about two weeks ago while house sitting, it's still swollen, i'm going to have it looked at tomorrow when i go to chico for thanksgiving. My sister gave me a chico state sweatshirt, i never thought i would want one before, but it gives me some sense of comfort now. Currently i'm taking an art class that keeps me quite busy, building gnomes from tinfoil, 7ft birds out of cardboard (turned out awesome), a oceanic scene from soap, rockin' creation of broken dishes and a gigantic cupcake. For a different class, a gaudy clock. Ruben just called from San Luis Obispo, i think he thinks that we are together still... we aren't. Sacramento has the most terrible basic television programs. So i spend a lot of time listening to my i-tunes. 80's revival. With that said, i have no personal life. But i can dream. As far as the home depot here, my first few weeks, i got a bit of attention on account that i was the fresh meat of the store. It all seemingly came from the kitchen and bath dept, and one in paint. I told the guy from paint who told me i had the body of a black woman and inquired upon our second conversation if i had ever been with a black man-- apparently, i'm missing out. Anyway i told him he was sexually harassing me and to go away. Surprisingly, he did. As for the kitchen and bath fellows,one left, so now it's down to one incredibly obnoxious admirers. He takes to throwing things at me while i'm in appointments etc, because appearently we are in junior high again. I wore a dork deflector because of him, but that was stolen when my car was broken into... the engagement is off. Not that the ring really acted as a deterrant for him anyway. So beyond him i actually have found a fella there that piques my interest. His name is Gregg (2 g's?)and he here again i run into that whole don't get your honey where you get your money problem, especially because he is on his way to manager-land, and that is a huge company no no. But i make eyes at him ayway and dress up slightly fancy. I can tell when he's impressed he has a great coy smile whenever he sees me and says hello. Sometimes going out of his way to do so as i am held hostage in kitchen design. But it certainly give me a reason to look forward to going to work day to day. � � |